the last 12 weeks

this time 12 weeks ago, i was in labor. i don't think i had thrown up my delicious dinner from uncle ernie's yet, but my contractions were coming faster and harder. i knew this entry into mommyhood would not be easy, but i also didn't think it would take 33 hours and a c-section! but it did, and ethan is here, and he's wonderful. i would do it all again for him. the labor and delivery was much harder than actually taking care of him has been (so far!!), so i do count my blessings. shortly after ethan was born, i ran across a precious quote.

before you were conceived, I wanted you. before you were born, I loved you. before you were here an hour, I would die for you. this is the miracle of life. -maureen hawkins

this little boy has captured my heart.... i was convinced that his first smiles were not because of gas :)...his first little laugh plays over and over in my head... God has been so good to us, and i look forward to filling my heart and my head with a million more memories of our baby boy.